superficial

As much as I try not to be superficial.
I think I truly am and listen, I try not to be, but it's H A R D.
Went to the beach today. Refused to take my long (ass covering) shirt off.
6 1/2 months pregnant, and its enough I have to look @ myself in the mirror everyday..
I shouldn't punish the people on the beach, haha.
I have my gestational diabetes test on wednesday and wow superficialnesssss kicks in once again. My main concern should be that of course- DO I HAVE DIABETES?
but no
It's...... OMG. I really don't want to be weighed!!!!
ahhhhhh. I'll just keep saying
13 weeks and 3 day.
13 weeks and 3 days. . . . AHHH I just want my body back. God, I'm horrible.